Humm.....I am writing but there is nothing in particular I have to write about. This week has been very stress free and I have been a bum. It is strange that no matter how strong I think my convictions are on anything I will daily stumble and compromise. The latest one of my compromises came when I hurt my wrist while at work. Actually, very honestly I hurt my wrist while jokingly punching a coworker. You must understand that this is some of the silly stuff that we as marines do for fun. Yes for as much as I put up a front I am a very immature person. Well anyway what I then did knowing that if I told them I hurt it while messing around I could get in trouble was make up a story of course. The bad part is that I told everyone of my coworkers what happend as well as my direct supervisors. I even said that I thought I should just tell my officer in charge what really happend. This I did probably to sound moral. My supervisor told me just to stick with the made up story which I of course consented too. I kept thinking of the post I read in Joanne's blog about the student who came clean about cheating and the commitment it took. Life is hard for in my case when I do come clean on such things which is really just doing the right thing I imagine God aplauding my goodness while completely excusing all of the bad i do. It is so easy even in our attempt to be humble to start to take pride even in our humility. I suppose as I have grown as a Christian I have more and more adapted the doctrine of total depravity. For without God unchanging, God all merciful all powerful, and all loving I would be most lost. If you could take the time please pray that I could have some amount of integrity in my life. Meaning make the man I show the world and the man I am am in my thoughts to be the same. Well as long as that man is more Christ and less me.......