Over the course of the past few months I have been burning a whole lot of midnight oil. Many nights I spend sitting idly in front of the computer screen searching for blogger's and Xanga's that resonate with my own heart. I spent a little time before I sat down to surf the net and considered why I do this. I refuse to go over the externals as to why I spend too much time surfing the net, I will go straight to the heart of the matter. I am looking for acceptance in the online world... looking for someone to validate my thoughts and Ideas. Someone to encourage, rebuke, agree, or deny me. All of this fruitless searching in order to supplement my time with the Lord. I also have some great freinds. My freinds Willy, Russ, Milo, Pete, Renee, and Becky are ssome I spend time talking about who God is, who Jesus Christ is, who we are in Christ and how that relates to the World. I have decided that I will not allow myself to surf the net or hang out with my freinds until I have spent time in the word and spent time with the Lord in prayer. Jesus Christ alone can fill the void in my heart... all other relationships, to include best freinds, or even spouses will not fill the emptiness in the heart of man so much as God.
Holy Father, Lord of my life and Savior of my soul, I consecrate my life to you today. I pour out my life as a drink offering to you my King. The blood of your Son draws me nigh Lord and keeps me so. I do not know where to go, but I am ready, Lord send me. How to adress the pain, how to be a light in a dark place? I do not know... Lord I ask, your will be done and you be glorified.