new to Iraq

So my long flights, numerous formations, ridiculous convoy are all over; whuch means I am in Iraq. I would love to sit and go over all the the details of the flight the realizations I came upon as I observed nature, or my coworkers, but I am not such a man. Especially not now it is 0230 in the morning and I don't even feel like deciphering what time that is for you figure it out. I can't stomach the Marine Corps at times. I am shocked that a man could get a little rank on his collar and be so full of himself, to even make comparisons between himself and God.
these are the type of men that dictate the schedule I work on and what convoys I get sent out on. I could think of about a thousand curse words that come to mind when I think of them. I even realize I am like them, or at the very least should pity them, but sometimes hatred is easier. To let all of your bad feelings anf thoughts boil over in your mind and enertain them rather than rebuke them. We are ordered not to form up in groups bigger than 5 people at a time becuase a Mortar attack could kill everyone if we are all gathered together. This to me makes perfect sense since just today there has been about 4 mortar attacks. My SNCO's don't care though. Us Marines watching thier heads swell before our eyes is so much more important. To think I am losing out on 56 days of paid vacation that I saved for, I am the only one with an EAS so close that got sent here to begin with, and they don't even really need me. They even went so far as to actually assign us numbers, thus confirming that we are in reality only numbers. This is only the light side of the tip of the iceberg for me and the marinecorps. I cannot wait to get out. I only really think of running away, flipping out, or just quitting. The end is so near 5 more months! Lord be with me temper my heart help me to flee from myself and accept your will in me being here. soothe my anxoius thoughts and help me to only see you in EVERYTHING. I am sorry I know none of this does anything to help anybody, not even me. I just want to let it be known that I am definetly human.
I have been thinking alot about what it is to be honest, what it is to need, and how that is manifested in people. There is a lot to it and the Lord has really been opening my heart and mind to understand. Maybe I will saher when I have a chance.