Phew!!! What are relief, I am on vacation now until the 29th of Dec. Then I go to work two days after which I am off another four days. I have to save my money for when I start College that means I am not going home for Christmas. I am bothered by this because like anyone else I just miss being around my family and friends at home. I think unlike others and very selfishly I have a different outlook. I do my time in the Marine Corps the way I would do jail time. You see for me it is easier to just focus on the task at hand. The more I call home and hear about how things are going at home, normally not the greatest, the more I will worry. This is really insensitive right? In reality it is me being concerned more about my own well being than that of my friends and family at home. Well, before I beat myself up there are more practical reasons, the fact that nothing really changes in my life, I have nothing of interest to tell them. It is normally just the facts with my family. It comes down too; "this is what so and so is doing, this is what we are doing, besides that nothing new is going on. How about yourself?" My answer sounds the same "I don't know work is the same, might go to the field soon, I really miss home I love you guys" Maybe all that is needed is that reassurance of being loved and thought about by those you love. I pray for them all in my prayers even my young cousins I hardly see on my stepmothers side of the family. So my issue isn't one of not caring I can not explain why I will just have to hope that someone reading can understand my vague intended meaning, if there is one?
Ah...... My new roommate listens to old gothic German hard rock, or something? I do not know what it is exactly, I will say it is scary. Really, I like quiet background music, preferably Christian music, classical, or Jazz. The funny thing is that I hear so much rap music now that I can tell you every different rappers name and some song (if you can call it that) he or she has. Every man I work with seems to think it necessary for me to hear about all there sexual exploits, on top of that how big of a "player" they are. The fact that I do not want to hear that sort of talk means that there is something wrong with me. I am amazed at how reality is twisted by the media and entertainment. For now I will leave that an undeveloped thought. I might go travel California aimlessly starting tonight, or at least watch The Return of the King! That I have waited for an entire year to watch. Well Just pray that if you read this that I can be a faithful ambassador to Christ and find good fellowship on Christmas.